She! Yes, that night she was near. Lying with the dew-ed cold grass under my back, I could feel her oh so close! She was sitting right next to me, smiling as I thought she always would! Dark night didn't frighten me at all... having her so close is so comforting that even fear fears to peep in! She went on staring at my eyes and then smiled - 'What have you done to yourself?'

I pushed a smile, 'You can see that...'

'But didn't I tell you to remember me whenever you need? Why did you hold on to 'her' so long.. you could come to me. I was always ready for you!'

'May be that's why I ignored you! Delayed you!'

'You remember that night, when tears were straming down from your eyes? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember the other night, there was blood in your mouth? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that height, where you were falling down? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that dawn, you found your pillow to be so wet? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that night, when you vomitted red? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that night, when loneliness was bleeding inside you? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that night, when lies were torturing you? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her! Remember that night, when she was with another man? I thought, you would call me. But no! You rather called her!....' She sighed anc continued,...'..yet, I've forgotten everything and have come to you tonight... bacause, for the 1st time, tonight you called for me...'

I raised myself to hug her... hugged her... she was so coforting .. and I uttered, 'I'm sorry for those nights dear. I was behind an illusion... Now that I'm disillusioned, I realise your beauty... Now I realise who you are... Now I know what was missing.... I missed you... I missed you so much! I love you.... I really do... yes, I love you... MY DEATH!'